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Isabella Gertrude Low credits you can remove this if you don't have a conscience. i assure you i will not hunt you down. skin by: Jane |
Friday, December 23, 2016 @ 2:17 AM
2016 so, 2016 has been quite crazy. new experiences, stepping out of comfort zones, pushing boundaries. Pretty proud of what I've accomplished to be very honest. School school school. School has been crazy, but weew, so glad that I've finally reached the half way point of my (probably) final stretch of education?? Never had i studied so hard before in my life. Met pretty wonderful people and I'm really glad to have them. AND YAY TO FINALLY HAVING A LONG BREAK???? finally having the space to breathe. SSO2016. A break through for myself. I would say im an introvert (tho people kept saying dont lie, but really guys) it wasnt easy for me to suddenly lead a group of people. But i would say it was a good decision. I've made many new people there. People that pushes me to do things that i wouldnt dare to usually. People like JY- always asking me to step out of my comfort zone, and the usual group that dragged me into 4/5 of HHN haunted houses (???? mega proud of myself???). SSO has also gotten me closer to people that i werent initially, like xinhui, we hardly talk despite being coursemates (okay la, maybe same time table got us closer too-- the kena pangseh by clique clique), QH--the asshole teammate that is srsly quite a big burden, but great to have around.  Ultimate. I'm really really glad that I did stay on in ultimate. It is physically draining and requires alot of discipline and mental strength, but im really happy in there. The people i met there, are the ones that really pushed me on to make myself better, to fight. For one point, i was really stressed out over being in ulty. that spark, that fire was just going down. It was the first time i wanted something so badly, something that i feel so much about. I'm not a player that is super passionate about the sport. SITultimate has taught me that, it's not about the game, it's always about the people. The people inside made me feel so strongly about the game, so strongly that i have to do well. special thanks to Daphne (like best mentor award goes to her srsly??), Gordon, Roger, Ave, Zeh, Sarah, Adam, Alicia, Ahma, Jervis, Farhana, Brenda etc. These people gave me the drive, pushed me to make myself a more trustworthy player on field. It's also ultimate that lead me to meeting my Cupids (+extended cupids) E, WY, YQ,GGINA,HW,JK,SE,L++++ Special thanks to L for letting me be your perm car slut (for now) and for always absorbing my angst (HHAHAA XIEXIE). -- 只要你相信，就一定会达到 相信，我是最强的 It doesnt matter what other people say, what others think. As long as you believe, and sometimes with a little bit of luck, you'll get there. -- 2016 has also taught me that, not everyone that comes into your life is meant to stay. I would say i ended a pretty toxic friendship with B. I thought that it might have been a rash decision on my part, but surprisingly, i felt relieved. I never realised how toxic this friendship was. throughout, I was always the one giving, always the one being there. and i was also always the one left hanging, thinking what went wrong because you werent replying. I've always felt that, being close, we could just speak our minds. I guess not. It wasnt even an intentional thing. (if you read this), That day i mentioned you looked short in your paegent photo, i mean honestly, we both know that you're shorter that the others, but really, shouldnt you be pissed with the photographer that made you stand and photograph in accordance to height (which fyi made you look muchmuch shorter?) or making you stand in the center and not even try to make the arrangement such that you looked similar in height with the others? Was i wrong? did i go over board?? I knew you for 7 freaking years. if you were affected with it, you should have voiced it out long ago. I told you things that i didnt like straight in your face before. why couldnt you do the same for me? If you valued this even 1 bit, you would have talked to me about it, if not, how was i supposed to know? i dont read minds??? Disappointed, but im glad i wouldnt have to live being affected by and guessing your moods. -- Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what is still possible for you to do. --Pope John XXIII |