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Isabella Gertrude Low credits you can remove this if you don't have a conscience. i assure you i will not hunt you down. skin by: Jane |
Saturday, April 27, 2013 @ 2:39 AM
just wanna scream and shout, and let it all out. Hello. it's only the 1st week of school and im dying already. with all the deadlines to meet, projects and assignments to do. it's just scary. Year 3. The final sem for me to pull my dumb GPA up. it's like my last chance alr. I really cant afford to screw up. But yet. My luck is shit. my group............ you know. But oh wells, the only thing i can do now is to suck it up and deal with it. -- This Sem has been good so far, having fun with the usuals. Made some really nice and dependable new friends that im really grateful for. Like, im finally able to step out of that barrier, to talk to someone about it. It's difficult, but i finally did. well, although it's not much, but that small step is the first after 11 years. maybe, im finally healing. it's really tiring to wear that fake mask and to keep telling people that im alright. in fact, I've never been alright. the past 11 years? there was never once i felt genuinely happy. Well, maybe im at the stage of self-pity, but hey, if you were to go through this at the age of 8, will your coping mechanism be any better? -- As long as there's faith, there will always be hope. I need to bring myself back to church. |