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Isabella Gertrude Low credits you can remove this if you don't have a conscience. i assure you i will not hunt you down. skin by: Jane |
Friday, October 21, 2011 @ 1:30 AM
"dont waste your time on, someone that will never love you back" ahhh, attempted to post in chinese. but hehehehehe. major phailure. -- school's starting soon, and im just hoping it's gonna be a good one. things are like getting out of hand. like i dont know what to do anm. it's literally killing me. -- i've done all i could, i tried my best. why cant you just let go? i'm insecure, im afraid, im quiet, all thanks to you. everytime i tried, it just happens over and over again, and the wall around me just builds higher and higher. have you ever tried stepping in my shoes and see how it feels like? why are you so fake? cant you just be yourself? -- people complain, about their parents, dad, mum, hey, have you ever considered that at least they are there for you? yeah, sure i'll like to complain to people about my dad. if that's even possible. my memory of him is already so fuzzy that i sometimes think that i might even forget how he looks like, what he had done, 10 years down the road. and that thought just scares me. i hate visiting him, if count to the columbarium to stare at his photo visiting, i dont see the point, he has left for good. so what for? oh yeah sure, i go around telling people, oh it's okay, after all it has been 9 years, i've gotten over it. but frankly, im breaking inside. it's just that you dont see it. you dont even have the fucking right to judge me, when you havent went through half of what i did. "i think that funerals are fun" i heard this from one of my classmate recently. ARE YOU SERIOUS? try going to a funeral with someone so dear to you lying down in the coffin and you cant do anything about it. TELL ME AGAIN, HOW FUN CAN IT BE? -- is seeing someone breaking down so fun for you? why do you have to do this? past grudges, just leave it be right. do you have to like go around telling people about the past when we've agreed to leave it in the past? oh and the best thing is that more that half of them are not even true. you seriously amuse me. ide. "this kind of friend you still want ar?" well, sometimes, it's about giving chances, but i guess, it's enough. -- /false hope, im still holding on, /im jealous, but still holding on, /i miss you, and i love you. /but i guess, it's about time, i have to let go. &it's about time i learn. |